thoughts is for status updates; situations that i've experienced, how i feel, ranting, venting, etc. these might cover sensitive topics and are mostly unfiltered. they aren't usually long and are more like brief ramblings compared to my entries in my actual blog.
writings is for poems, stories, and other kinds of things i have written for people, characters, or other kinds of media. sometimes it's dedicated to someone i love or hate, a show that i enjoy watching, or anything else i wish to write about.
3/18/2026
why cant i just shut my annoying mouth for once ugh
ENTRY #4
3/18/2026
i hate those belittling jokes you make, you know? you're just an ignorant piece of shit who thinks they're always right. someone who claims to be better than another, yet they are just as bad as them. you tell me to do what i want, then command me to live by your rules... your unbearably stupid rules. but at the same time, i can't help but care. for you. oh, how i love and hate you
ENTRY #3
3/??/2026
can't you ever understand?
ENTRY #2
3/??/2026
sometimes i feel like i am made only to yield and nothing else. most of the things i do are but a performance; a mask with no other purpose to serve and bring joy to anyone but the wearer. i am both a ghost—always there yet never to be seen (or maybe no one bothers to see) or a mannequin—something that can pose in any way you want when you need it to. we are born to be free, yet i find my life lacking autonomy in several aspects.
ENTRY #1
03/17/2026
wip
RED
03/17/2026
a puzzle made out of others' flesh that cannot shrink; only grow. it was once a mere piece; a puzzle incomplete, and then it began to yield pieces of itself for more pieces of others. you could say it's still the same piece, but if all its parts have been replaced, is it really the same? if it changes itself bit by bit everyday, would you still be able to find the original piece that this puzzle of flesh was built upon? is it still the same if you cannot tell where the lies end and the truths begin? if all the truths that used to be have turned into nothing but lies?
UNTITLED #2
03/16/2026
i shall live the rest of my life in an illusion
one full of lies; one full of deception
but the truth is the light; the blade i fear
it is the sharpest sword, the most fatal too
the one that shall cut all that i hold dear
a destroyer of my dream and the ideal i pursue
this gilded cage of crafted fallacies
MIRAGE
03/13/2026
discontinued for now, perhaps eternally unfinished cuz i dont liekkkkk this particular one
yearning for something you can't ever achieve
called by a name that is not your own
living by a life that you were not supposed to have
stuck forever in an eternal dream
but soon you'll find yourself walking back home
seeing all the familiar bright lights
and only then shall the dream end
inspo: don quixote/sancho (limbus company)
UNTITLED #1
03/12/2026
a red cloak swaying on the tree
a sunflower's smile and joy
embers of flames in the fields
fire eating up all the trees
burning wildly; burning brightly
consuming everything in its wake
yellow petals fall from the flower
fading into ashes in the wind
nothing but a hazy, distant memory
that only drifts further and further away
the more you try to reach it
insp: ruby - wwm